My Future Wife...

Looking in your eyes, I can see straight through
to your heart, and there I know
That you are mine.
And that every little thing,
Is gonna be alright.
It'll be alright.

Smiling when you smile at me
I can't help it cause you smile, contagiously
At least for me, and I know
That every little thing is gonna, turn out fine.
It'll turn out fine.

I'll never have to wonder,
Never have to worry 'bout,
You and I.

You and I...

Cause when the rain starts pouring down,
And the tide starts picking up
Oh you know that we won't budge,
You know that we will stand.
Cause we plant our feet on rock,
Not in the sand.
Not in the sand...

And I know,

That when life's rising up to beat us
I know it won't defeat us.
Cause when you've got what we've got, what we've got
Ya can't let it go,
Ya can't let it go

And I know

That while you're standing over there,
Wind blowing in your hair, your heart
Is over here with me.
And so I'll never have to doubt
When the rain is pouring down,
Where your heart will be.
Oh where your heart will be...

And I can never know 100 percent,
If the sun will shine my way again.
And I will never know if the winds that blow
Will always spare my house and home,

But I know.

Yeah I know, that I know, that I know, that I know
Where your heart lies.
And looking in your eyes..
Looking in your eyes,
I can see you love me.

So I'll count the blessings I have today,
And thank my God for sending you my way.
Cause there ain't no way this would be true,
Without him guiding us on through.

And I can't begin to say, how thankful I am
To know he has us in his hand.
And to know he's always watching,
Over me and you..
So Lord, I thank you; For blessing me this way...
For this love, and the lessons,
And the growing, you've had me do.

I want to say thank you for
The girl right there
With the wind that's blowing through her long brown hair
And the smile that says she's happy,
To be here.

I want to thank you for how,
Looking in her eyes
I can tell she loves
That I'm her guy.

And God I pray that way, it'll stay,
As long as you want it to..

I pray I'll never take for granted
The blessing she is to me
And I pray I'll never hurt her
Oh Lord please let it be.

I pray you'll help me comfort,
Help me encourage,
Help me be a man.

Help me understand.

Help me to discern the jealousy,
Let it have no power over me.
And help me live with loyalty,
To trust she'll do the same for me.

Let me always be patient,
Always be kind,
And never to boast when it's tempting.
Let me always build up,
Never tear down,
Not think about myself gaining.

Help me never keep record,
Of when I've been wronged,
And always rejoice in the truth.
Help me protect, help me trust
Help us persevere, and live
With love, how you want us to.

I pray for many more times, where the sun will shine
And where the nights are clear for dancing,
Beneath the stars.
With transparent hearts.

I pray for days of comfort, I pray for days of peace
I pray for days enjoying her, being here with me.
Oh Lord let it be.
Lord let it be.

Prophetic Worship

This just speaks to me so much...I can't help but post two blogs in one day =).

I pray to be this anointed in my worship and even more.

I want to be able to sing God's word and heart to his children and speak his presence over a room.

I know it's not about me, but I want God to use me to make himself known and tangible.

Ginosko

Ok so it has been a while since I last blogged...about half a year apparently.  I know, I'm sorry, it's a problem. I don't even really know who reads these if I'm going to be serious.

Basically I have been changing...it's a rough process, but oh so worth it when the Lord breaks through.  It's up and down because I still fall a lot, and it kinda gets me down.  I mean, I know that the Lord wants me to get up, apologize, and keep pursuing him...but it's a bit harder than that for me to get past it myself.  I guess I hold myself to a pretty high standard.  In some ways it's dumb because I'm human and make mistakes, but then again, I know I'm capable to be just about all that I have my sights set on...it's still a ridiculous challenge though.

Many many ups and downs. One time I'll be in hot pursuit of God and experiencing him, and then however long later I'll fall again. Does this happen to everyone? I wanna just move past it.  I'm 100% sincere when I say that all I desire is for the Lord to be tangibly here, and present in my life...to make me who he wants me to be...and I'm acting on that more now and with more passion and desire than I have ever before in my life......but I still find ways to complicate things. I know I can't be perfect...I just wish I could come close to being close to being almost half way to being close to being....well you get it.

Psalm 27:4, Jude 1:24, and Ezekiel 36:26 have been the passages I have been relying on.

I just want God, sometimes he feels so close but right out of reach, other times he feels distant, but I want him to be HERE and know him.

Not just like...intellectually....but like...how do you say it...

the Greek word is ginosko....with those little - symbols over the o's.

it means "to know through experience; to perceive through the senses."  I want to know him through experience.