My Psalms; 1

Lord God be near to me.
It feels like the enemy is constantly trying to attack at the places closest to me.
He ruthlessly batters at my head and my heart trying to gain ground.

Stand firm, oh God and don't back down.
Take your chosen position between me and my enemies
with the determination of a Father defending his son.

When I try to fight alone, I am defeated time and again.
The enemy wreaks terror in my mind, and causes more turmoil than I can bear.
He tries to take away those closest to me, Lord.
Attempting to turn them against me or sever the bonds beyond repair,
Without You there is no hope for me, God.

But You are here.
You are never far from me, gracious Father.
Even when I cannot see You or feel You, I know You are near.
You are looking after me, and have Your eyes fixed upon me.
You are my own personal guardian.

When all else crashes around me with all stops pulled,
You are the one who still stands firm, and you choose to stand in the way.
You place yourself in a protective stance around your servant,
And hide me away from those trying to harm me.

You always have my best interest in mind, heart, and hand.
You consistently and patiently give me reasons to trust in You,
And jump into Your arms
Never getting tired of my slow progress.

You have caused me to believe in Your promises,
That You desire me every day,
That Your love will never fail or leave me,
That I never fall too far into darkness or hopelessness for your redemption,
That You will lead me on Your path all my days,
That You will work all things together for my good.

I know that the things I see as troubles,
You see as opportunity to show me who You really are,
Opportunity to bless me,
Opportunity to grow me.
And You never fail to take advantage of them,
For You desire to express Your love.

Take my life as it is, Lord
Take these crashing walls.
Use them to show me what you have placed on the other side.
A blessing that you have positioned strategically,
To bring beauty from the ashes I see.

Never leave me to do this alone.
Stay strong Lord, and teach me to solely rely on You.
Lead me to a place where I desire only You,
And can freely hold everything else with open hands.
Be my everything, Father.
Let me have more of You.